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Found Out by GothMayhem, literature

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Found Out

I thought I was right in Believing these lies To think I never saw The truth in those eyes I denied this was happening I tried to close myself in But when the proof is in front of me I must admit the sin If only these were rumors Then I would be fine But the cover's been blown away And this crosses the line Thank God for solid fact To break the facades Now that I think back… Things were getting odd This must come to an end I'm tired of the shame In which I am the victim Of this twisted lying game

I Still Miss You by GothMayhem, literature

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I Still Miss You

For reasons unknown, I still miss you You'd think, by this time, I would not So much time has gone by; I haven't forgotten How your smile tied my stomach in knots And even now, just looking into your eyes Makes me think of times past Those that, I know, are lost to me Those I'd wished would forever last Now, late at night, when I've nothing to do Memories of you flood my mind I'm lost in them, reveling, feeling flickers of peace Then I see you walking; you've left me behind Why did you leave me here? What did I do? I never thought anything was wrong What was it about me that drove you away? Why won't you say what I did

Memories by GothMayhem, literature

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Memories

Keep yourself busy, do things all day Don't let a free moment exist For if one appears the memories come So many, too many to list All the good times flooding back The ones forever lost That make you wonder what changed it all The sunshine to the frost Why is it, when you're resting up, Your thoughts must bring you pain? To make sure you've learned your lesson? To never do it again? Or why, while thinking of those long gone, Faint smiles become such heartache? You remember meeting him, remember his goals Is it done only for hurt's sake? The mind is a cruel, twisted thing Making you relive the bleak past Why can't it

Twisted by GothMayhem, literature

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Twisted

You confuse me I thought I knew but I don't I'm all twisted inside To say I was wrong I won't I don't know what I'm doing Or going anymore Perplexed, I stare at nothing Laying on the floor I thought this was done But it's not, now is it? Quit playing games I feel close to a fit I guess you got me I'm lost all over again Wonder what surprises Lay just around the bend Why did this have to come back? At this time it frustrates What I think and you said Right now would only complicate

Moving forward by GothMayhem, literature

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Moving forward

Did you think that you could break me When I'm sure I see your jealousy? You tried tugging at my heartstrings To find they were not in your reach You say the memories are naught but bad I'll admit, that hurt, But I'll forget the past; I'm happy now- Take that for what it's worth Bet you thought I would be lonely And I would come running back How does it feel to be proved wrong? To have your insults thrown right back? I've found somebody worth my time Who cares about how I feel Who respects my ideas and my wishes Who makes my senses reel Take that, asshole, a blow to your pride Oh, and remember this: I may have loved

A Different Kind of Torture by GothMayhem, literature

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A Different Kind of Torture

Give me thumbscrews, give me knives Anything but this Subject me instead to terrors Too numerable to list This internal sort of turmoil Is worse than most things I've been through Inwardly pacing, wearing paths in the ground Dare I hope? What do I do? Outwardly I'm smiling But look into my troubled eyes You'll see me pondering the outcomes Hiding behind white lies "Yes, I'm fine, don't worry about me" Add another to the pile Convince you that it's all okay When really, all the while Unknowingly, you torture me Timid reluctance causes pain Give me a decision; make this end! There isn't one, once again

Critical Mass by GothMayhem, literature

A Witch's Comeback by GothMayhem, literature

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A Witch's Comeback

A Witch's Comeback How dare you try to destroy me? So what if I try shit? It's my escape from our world's hate And you were drawn to it Explaining it's like witchcraft Admit I tried that too I'll let you in my secret world And bid this one adieu I like to experiment To see if it was real So far it's worked, I'll spread the word I don't care what you feel My world's been exposed, dreams are gone The accusations fly You got scared and told them all I'll get you, by and by I was smart and shut my mouth And told them they were wrong It all died down and now I'm back Weak before, now strong

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Lucifer's Plea by GothMayhem, literature

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Lucifer's Plea

Lucifer's Plea Remember when I was favored? You placed me above all the rest I was most beautiful and most revered To You I was solely the best But I dared to ask of how things ran And I was convinced that You were wrong Why leave Your creation so simple and dumb Such a mindless and fragile throng? How dare You make like you did us Not knowing the have a choice? They don't know they don't have to answer When they hear Your voice! Pitiful beings! I'll fight for you I waged war in the Heavens Sadly my followers and I were cast out And I became this angry heathen Listen to me, humankind! You're just as good as God! I g

Imperfections by GothMayhem, literature

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Imperfections

Imperfections It's stupid, all the teenage girls Killing themselves to be thought of as "hot" Using rail-thin models as ultimate goals From an early age, it's what we're taught As for me- I guess I'm a lucky one I'm already thin, though not tall I don't gain weight and eat what I want But I'm not perfect, after all My skin is a mess, an oily disaster I'm 5'4"- I want to be tall! My teeth are not white and my spine slightly curves And in my eyes, my boobs are too small I have no job and I can't drive a car Just 16, and sadly in debt I bite not just my nails but the cuticles too Don't tell me I've no reason to fret! Th

Contemplating Death by GothMayhem, literature

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A Different Kind of Torture

Moving forward by GothMayhem, literature

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Moving forward

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Twisted

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Memories

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Artist // Literature

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Deviant for 19 years
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Favourite genre of music: hard rock/heavy metal, industrial, alternative, jazz
Operating System: WinXP Pro
Skin of choice: ...the yellow-tan skin I have...
Favourite cartoon character: GIR from Invader Zim
Personal Quote: "You know what? FUCK YOU, that's what." -angry me

Favourite Movies

The Crow

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

KoRn, Big Bad Voodoo Daddy, Mindless Self Indulgence

Favourite Writers

Edgar Allan Poe

Favourite Games

Starsiege Tribes

Favourite Gaming Platform

PC...

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black ballpoint pen and/or Word

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GothMayhem

May 23, 2008

MILES of dust

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Dear God, I've let this thing sit idly by for far too long. I've been recently working on an original novel, which I'll be putting up over the rest of today... I don't have a title for it yet, so any ideas would be greatly appreciated! Other than that, I've had fanfiction... I'm up on ff.net as weetziebat05 if you're interested in reading some Harry Potter or Twilight fanfiction. I guess I could put it up here... NAH. Too much work. Anyway, read/review my stuff please, and I'll R&R yours. It's only fair, right?

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GothMayhem

Nov 18, 2005

more dustiness

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MY MUSE IS BACK!!! Well.... kind of, anyway; I can think of poetry to write but since I prefer to have a complete first stanza in my head before I write it down, the idea sometimes pales next to my expectations and is discarded. Not much to report on, except that I left my longtime b/f about two and a half months ago or so... and that I'm going to major in bioengineering and minor in music... I'm at the junior college in town right now but planning on transferring to Souther Mississippi for Fall 06... I'm into poker now too... and I think that's about it for now. Hopefully my muse will stick around for a bit and help me keep this thing updat

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GothMayhem

Jul 30, 2005

inches of dust

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wow it's been awhile... almost forgot I had an acct here until I found an e-mail from some poetry thing I subscribed to... Nothing new to report, except that I graduated high school (hell yes) and that I have no new poetry... my muse has left me for a spell :(

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sappy-fire

Aug 29, 2008

Yo, buddy. What'd you want me to check out? and hit me a message on facebook, next time...sorry, don't check this as much as I should...

SpicePrincess

May 23, 2008

Thanx for the nnice comment...and I love your avvy, btw!

lol

sappy-fire

Apr 22, 2005

Hey you! Yeahhh, you! You better come back and do stuff...or else! **shakes a fist** I'ma tackle you next time you're on yahoo or AIM...and then you'll be in for it...

-Willum

GothMayhem

May 23, 2008

It took me over three years, but I"m back

thecarlosmal

Jan 18, 2005

's friends are my friends... I guess...

Welcome to Deviantart, good luck!

sappy-fire

Jan 15, 2005

Yay! My friend Gabby! **attackles you**

Welcome, buddy...you are my friend, and I'll pimp you to EVERYONE...

...Pimp meaning Promote...of course.
-Willum, your Mexican buddy

GothMayhem

Jan 7, 2005